OFTEN..I had hated what I was..BASTARD..outcast..freak of nature ,hell combined..

..growing up I never had the chance to interact wit' others my age..

..other than my brothers..

BUT ya see..

They are..like my Sai..the are part of me..my best friends..

My sai..2 twin daggers..one can't work well without the other ..but together..they are this weird TAO thing..DAMM .I sound like Leo..

..they are extentions of my torso..my arms..my hands..

I can take them,twirl 'em,twist 'em,slice,jag,n' jab..they are instruments of death or instruments of protection..they are alot of things..if I wanted..I could use 'em as extensions of my anger..the fear I drive into my enemy..

I see how these ..BLUNT 'lil knives..make 'em twitch..

yeah..they know I could rip out their spleen..SMASH thru the cavity n' stab the brain..NO..they don't like that..not 1 bit..

..it intimedates 'em..

1 time I lost a sai..it was like loosein' an arm..or a leg..it was like loosin' a friend..I don't care if you don' understand..my SAI..she is part of my body..she is part of me..

LEO..has always been a thorn..

I could never understand what made him so "FOCUSED"..so well trained..

so much like MASTER..so "WONDERFUL"..yeah..

he is my brother..he can also be my enemy

..that smirk..

that SUPERIORITY..& then..

"SHEESH,Raph..yir too outta control..do better next time..GAWW..what would Splinter think?!.."

Fuckin' prick..always on my case!!..

"Your ATTITUDE..yir VIOLENT NATURE..yir such a HOT- HEAD.."..I've never asked fer his SHiT period..there once was a time..

I'd be.."LEO..don't bother me!!"..yeah..maybe I was like that fer..O'..a month!!

..now I invite it..COME ON,LEO..taunt me..tease me..PROVE yir better..I don't give a FUCK,LEO..you act like a GOD..FUCK you LEO..no..you are not a god ..you are not MASTER..you are a slave driver,you are BOASTING SHiT..period..

I've always had to live in his shadow..his level..well,LEO..I ain' a kid nomore..while Master still loves you best..

I don't give a FuCK anymore..

LEO,cross that line this last time..I promise I'll bust..I'll crush you!! You will call me MASTER!! !! .. .. ..but then..

I know at times,LEO has been there..naw ..

I won't go mush..but sometimes..NOONE would gaurd my back..but LEO..no one would stick up fer me..no one would stay by my side..LEO did though..I want so bad to kick his ass into de ground.. ..but he is my brother..

FUCKIN' GODDAM prick..he is ..he is an ill brother..he is one I want on my side..even if 1/2 the time he ain't..like my sai..he is part of me..

..MIKEY..ehh..well..maybe..ehhh..He is a fun guy!!

..He brightens my mornins'..all F8CK breaks loose..but there he is..somethin' totally out of de blue **BAMM** he smaks me wit' sumthin' that smaks my broad,funny side..he'll tickle a rib & ya can't help but laff..once in awhile ..he'll time wrong & I'm .."F7CK you,MIKE..SHUTUP!!."

..but not often ..things 'll bear down on us..fists o' fury..smashin' in..Mike..'lil fighter..just jumps in like it's a party..CRAKIN' SMAKIN'..CHUX TWIRLIN'..he is like lightenin'..he is gettin' STRONGER..his fightin' is UNIQUE..I've seen it GROW!! I've seen him open up to even katanas n' TONFAS..no one gives him credit..I'll say he is kinda a smart 'lil bastard..

I'll never tell him..that's MASTER n' Leo's place..but I'll say.."GOOD HIT MIKE!! err..WHAA?? YA GOT LAID!! HAAAA!!" ..he'll smile..he is like a funny lil' monkey..Jokes aside..he'll bite n' hammer n' claw,he is a riot..he is a comidian ..he is a best-friend..he also may look up ta me..but times..I've looked ta him..he is m' brother..

like my sai..he is part of me..

Hmmm..CASE,APRIL,n' Shadow....they play diff role in life..than they used to..

April was kinda a cool sister..a lady I could kinda tease ..n' maybe pal with..she is amazin'..if she were a reptile..I'd deff **BANG** hook up with her..she's gotten a ton of SHIT from people..

life has given her sh$t..but she is like ..so strong..I can't imagine what drives her..I've only heard about her family..I've had little contact with what few relatives she's got..I know she has a kid sis in Cali..n' I've met her wak uncle..but other than that..it is pretty much all ded..I think that's why she hangs wit' us so much..lookit..we come into this "NORMAL" lady's life..n' ehhh..like become her SIBS..YO..Splinter is like a father to her..n' well the rest are kinda screwy cuzins that hang around ..annoy ya n' ..well ya love 'em anyway..April is sooo cool..

C.J. has always been my homee..nawwww..we ain't exactly like my bro..he is my best friend..I could always crash skulls n' hang..we'd shot de SH7T n' even shoot hoops..I could cruise wit' him..everything..he is a freek like me..but YO..I shoulda figured he'd settle down sooner er later..hmmm..yeah..he is kinda stale nowadays..once in awhile..he'll go back ta ol' times..he'll just be "DAMM..gotta go!!..I'll see this wild twinge in his eye..that is de Case I know..not this "FAMILY MAN" sh$t..then..**WHAMM** ..take off n' SMASH!!..he is softer on style..I think this family stuff did it to 'im..April..n' him is gettin' sooooo..DAMM close..yeah..they'll marry..It is sooo..F%$Kin' in front!!..yeah..she's dodgin'..no I ain't no PHYCIC..but she'll cave n' they'll hitch..they kinda are now..I mean 'lil Shadow..Casey gave her a tight name..she is a little flower,a little hellion,a little Leo, alittle Mike,a little Don,a little Casey, a little Ape, a little SPLINTER..a little me..

I've seen her..pull Klunk's tail..hehheh..screwy furball screeches..but then he knows she won't hurt 'im..then he curls up ta her..like he does Mike..heh..she has a 'lil funky playful spirit.. ..I've seen it..someday..if we're lucky..she'll become a STRONG fighter..I've seen her!! She mimics me n' crew..it is there..mark my words..one day she Will not be daddy's little girl..then **POW** Casey Jr.

..heh..she's a little riot..I'd lie if she didn't bring a smile ta me every now & then..but I'm UNCA RAPH..heh..she is sweet..but she is spoil..but..YO..sometimes Case gets overworked..n' gets stale..I'd never tell April this..but I'll get him Pissed now n' then..he'll get a little tippy but just enuf ta go wild..we'll go crash bad asses..but April would hate me fer this..She has become a MOTHER HEN now wit' CASE n 'SHAD..I'd better watch it..I'll be there for 'em..I'll be like the winged Gardian Angel from Hell..those FEDS er Foot..F&^K anymore with the 3..the price will be enormous..they are part of my family..I care to much..they bleed..I bleed..they are my friends & family..they are..like my sai..part of me..

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