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sábado, febrero 01, 2003 -->> -l 0 l .. ..it's supposed to be funny.. ..ok.. .. i need to feel.. i am that dark spot.. that voided nothing.. i am numb .. and i am not real.. i not only crave the feeling of burning,bleeding, .. but i need it so bad.. i can't fight it.. Yes.. i am going to feel.. i am.. ..i cannot handle it at these very blank times..i am evil.. ..no.. I AM VERY BAD.. I AM EVIL!! .. they won't let you die.. but it's ok for space shuttles to blow up..people die.. & now it's an investigation in terrorism.. n' hell we are prolly still going to go to war.. ..'YA DUN SURE GOTTA LOT TO LIVE FOR ,t0KKa..' .. SURE I DO!! ..SEE MORE PEOPLE DIE ?! .. life goes on.. right.. ..L0L.. L0L.. L0L.. ..feel real?? ..i don't.. need to bleed.. .. i'm so retarded.. kind of like that 3rd guy there... >v< ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! l0l ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! ..l0l Bonus:: .. this one is a classic.. .. ..wish i was there.. 'stead of her ..life goes on.. l0l ..Mrs.B is still 'rotting'.. . >v< .................................. -->> ..i am real for a few more hours.. soldering your flesh is pretty much a rattle booster .. ..it wakes me up.. shames me.. makes me real.. makes me uglier.. makes me a hypocrit.. ..makes me deader..pisses more people off.. but i wanted to be real so bad.. .. now for a while i am.. the instand that tip hit my back.. .like a rush of sharp life entering into me.. so magnificent.. ..that's not bull shit.. i am real.. for a few hours.. wow.. ..my back smells like burnt dog hairs..and i am in pain.. ..and i am alone.. and the shuttle people are dead..and i am an idiot.. ..only difference now is..i feel it.. ..>v< ..? ? ? ? ?..   martes, enero 28, 2003 -->> .. i can't be real.. whywhywhy whywhywhy whywhywhy whywhywhy whywhywhy whywhywhy.. is all i ever asked..now after much unforseen events in 'prolinging' life.. ..i am confusedmasmhell .. scared as i've not ever been..& i can't take the schitzo mood swings.. & the nation will go to war.. ..(hopefully not ..but if bush gets his way..we will..i'll see him in hell too..) ..back to baisics..i've got the 2 f8ckin bottles of those sh7t pills i have to be cramming down my throught ( i hate them ..and i don't neeed them).. i am looking at taking both bottles.. ..i am also going back to an old facination of mine..broken glass.. NICE BIG SHARDS of broken glass.. i want to eat the little peices..lick tem..and drive the big peices into my arms.. ..i need feeling.. right now ah f7ck ..>v< ..? ? ? ? ?..   -->> @ http://www.theohzone.net/images/bigmacpz.jpg ..i am so fried.. i am in class.. teacher sez..:: YAYAYAYAYAAADABLLAAAHH BLAAAHHYAYAYAYAYAYAY.. ..she is nice tho' .. i like Mrs.LAXON..she is batty.. i am real slap happy..no sleep. ..i get so 'fake happy' when i'm like this.. i miss Mrs.Barringer so much..she is so dead tho'.. ..i feel so retarded..i keep picturing her in the ground now.. she must be very green.. and have worms on her. ..i am trying not to cry cuz i am in middle of class.. i wish people would let me die. It is not skin off your back.. so let it go.. sh7t.. ..Mrs.B was so warmand nice now she is cold & green like a ninja turtle. .. Mr.B has not talked to me much.. i think he is mad cuz i didn't go to her funeral at the Evil Christian Church..it is called 'NEW LIFE' church. When i go to hel ..i will see them there.. still worshiping their golden calves.. ..i know i worship Golden Calves..i even eat them.. one of them is my hero.. 'Officer Big Mac' is always so valiant.. but he is near sighted..see his google eyes n' that big dough nose?? ..how could he not have a stigmatism?? Dumm Hamburglar is so popular.. it's not fair.. Mc Donalds promotes a petty theif more than they do an officer of the peice.. SHEESH September 11 made cops 'Superman' ..while the firemen and women & cops were doing thier job & lost so much.. ..but Mc Donald's..::the "ALL AMERICAN" company makes Hamburglar..(he's a BURGLAR!! ..HE STEALS..THAT IS BAD,RIGHT??) ..a superstar..& Big Mac.. the hero..lives in the enigmatic & Dark Shadows of Mc Donaldland lore & marketing.. ....sh8t .. that right there is good enuf' reason for someone to fatally beat me with golf clubs.. ..>v< ..? ? ? ? ?..