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viernes, junio 13, 2003
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.. alone.. much voices.. much fear.. i should not talk to my mawm.. she is never proud of me.. i never make her happy.. i hadn't talked to her in 3 weeks..now suddenlt i call her house and get 'her'.. i'm never going 'to make it' .. i'm never going to be anything.. i was just calling her to see if it was ok that i use her scanner.. not for 'Gee ,mawm.. am i gonna make it this world?? ' ..
.. but this is always the case.. today was bad.. i've needed to bleed very profusly.. but i am fighting it.. it is the most manic thing to 'not feel .. when you desperatly need to feel.. now all i can think about is angel.. tigers are around me.. and too many voices clotting my exsistance.. the only reason .. i wonder anyway.. people fear me sometimes.. cuz i remind them of the monstroseties of the world.. and perhaps of themselves.. need to bleed right NOW!!.. can't.. want to.. won't.. help,angel.. i won't loose angel..
..angel is proud of me?? i hate being schizophrenic.. i love angel.. . . // //
.. >v<
jueves, junio 12, 2003
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Sticklers for fish porn
June 12 2003
Fish can be turned on by an aquatic equivalent
of pornography, according to new research revealed today.
Scientists at a Swiss university have discovered that male
sticklebacks ejaculate more sperm if first stimulated by a
"soft porn" film showing flirting fish.
It is thought that the image sparks off a
competitive instinct in the spectating sticklebacks
to ensure they stand the highest chance of fertilising
their female's eggs.
The researchers at the University of Fribourg
believe the fish porn simulates conditions in the wild where
mating male sticklebacks ejaculate more if they are threatened
by other finned Romeos swimming nearby.
Mating is a cut-throat business among sticklebacks.
The male builds a nest before beginning an elaborate
courtship with his chosen female.
When sufficiently charmed by her male, the female lays her
eggs in his nest for him to ejaculate over to fertilise them.
But, often, other frisky males sneak
into the nest and try to fertilise the eggs as well.
Males who feel their nest is threatened ejaculate more to
raise their chances of being the first to father the baby fish.
To gain a better understanding of what the males
consider to be highly-threatening situations, the researchers
put together two full-colour computer animations showing virtual
sticklebacks.
According to a report in the New Scientist, the first was the
"sexy" film of a male courting a female, while the other
showed a male caring for his brood.
Both films were shown to 17 male sticklebacks who
had each built a nest from twine in a gravel-filled Petrie
dish in their separate fish tanks.
The two films were shown in random order to each male.
After each stickleback had watched one film for a
couple of minutes, a female was put in the tank to spawn.
The New Scientist reported that each fish ejaculated
more sperm over the eggs if they'd seen the fish porn than
if they had just seen the male with brood.
source @
http://www.smh.com.au/articles/2003/06/12/1055220692878.html
.. sea food is suddenly very appealing right about now..
..but the word 'Brood' also makes me very horny..
..excuse me.. i need to go.. masturbate..
where's my copy of 'Jaws' .. o wait..
8{
..>v<
martes, junio 10, 2003
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Martha Stewart will tell you it's not a good thing.
On Wednesday, federal prosecutors charged her with securities fraud,
obstruction of justice, conspiracy and lying to investigators in
regard to her sale of almost 4,000 shares of ImClone Systems
stock the day before it plummeted. If found guilty, she faces a maximum
30 years in prison and a $2 million fine.
Stewart pleaded innocent to all counts before a federal
judge in New York City.
A few hours later, she stepped down as
chairwoman and chief executive of the dynasty
she built, Martha Stewart Living Omnimedia.
She told the press she intends to remain on
board as a director and creative force.
In a full page ad Thursday in
USA Today, Stewart proclaims her innocence and
says she's confident she will "be exonerated of these baseless charges."
She has even taken the unique step of creating a Web site, www.marthatalks.com, to
keep the public apprised of her case and to encourage them to contact her regarding it.
She is probably concerned that in the public's eye, she is already guilty.
Perhaps it is true. If so, it's too bad Stewart won't be given the benefit
of being considered innocent until proven guilty that all who enter the court
system should receive.
This cluster condemnation of her reflects a curious habit of Americans.
We love to root for underdogs and see them climb the ladder of success.
No sooner do they reach the top than we savor the sight of life's paint
cans knocking them down. It's like the adage that the tallest flower
in the field gets cut first.
Stewart's high profile is most certainly contributing to
the depth of scrutiny she is undergoing. Right after the initial
charges were filed, the Securities and Exchange Commission filed a complaint to
keep Stewart from ever leading a public company again and limit her duties as
an officer of one. That's a sure sign they want to make an example of her if she is found guilty.
Yet at the same time, Stewart's profile should not shield her from the law.
Prosecutors say they have a pretty damning case against her.
In any case, the trial will be fascinating to her fans and foes.
They might want to flip through her recipes to find the perfect snacks to make for
those long hours of watching TV as her trial progresses.
.. o' that's it.. as Martha's Stewart's official UN-official Cabin n' whipping boy..
tOkKa sez.. :: .. put 'em up.. ya big bullies.. put 'em up.. ya lousy feds.. i'll take ya all on..
.. bare handed n' with one foot tied behind my back.. come on.. i'll make ya all into a
doily quilt patch with Sweedish fringe Ruffles..cuz Martha showed me how.. so come on..
pick on someone with an ego your own size.. come on ya smelly feds..i'll take
ya all down !!
.. >v<