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jueves, junio 19, 2003
-->> .. i will always be bad..they will not take me back to hospital..i do not feel.. i' m going to bleed again..
..>v<

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miércoles, junio 18, 2003
-->> .. i wanna kiss her but ..she won't let me..

.. just when you're about to solder yourself.. there are somethings that suddenly make you want to just lay back down and make it all go away.. Tuesday.. i woke up prolly 15 times.. each time it was 10:30 AM..
.. 'o .. i got time for a bit more shut eye.. i don't have to be at school til' noon..' ..

.. at 2:25 p.m. .. the clock was still 10:30 A.M. .. man on radio said.. "2:25 p.m. .. !!"
..the clock was in the "ALARM SET" mode.. AHH SH7t!! ..i hate being schiz0!!

.. .. i wanted to stay in bed.. with some 'boosum buddies.. '.. kill me.. ..>v<




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domingo, junio 15, 2003
-->>
.. bad things don't
happen Friday the 13th.. your smart.. you know this.. bad things happen..
THE DAY AFTER..!! so.. in a nutshell.. or at least a family size jar of 'JIF' peanutbutter..

Rain=flood.. flood =rain.. rain flood basement.. me panic..me go manic try empty water in window ell at ground leve..with snow shovel.. use bucket that worked.. made sure electic unplugged.. i trip bad and rip all vegitation around ground level where window flooded (all i could think was i wanted no more watering in the windowell for this is the millionth time water leaks down here and the 3rd flood) .. people live in upper half .. scared them.. call my pop.. pop brings little shop vac.. goes.. Myrna brings big fat 16 gallon shop vac.. we start vacumm.. Myrna brought Wendy Burgers.. got sick.. cops came.. try figure situation.. find i'm schizo.. so play all nice .. landlord comes from flight that was delayed cuz of bad storm at Colorado Springs airport.. "worst storm in years".. Landlord and her beau help me vac up worst of water.. all books damaged and wood shelves.. .. i clean all vegitation and flood run off in yard ,patio , and what i ripped out..i felt real bad.. land lord help me turn on on hot sauna furnace and fan to dry for few days so place will be big wreck for few days.. i wanted change shirt so i could go to Wal-mart and replace what i destroyed w/ like a flowering window box or something..'Boxie' i taking the rear ..while 'Jesus Christ' and 'Holy Ghost are 2nd and 3rd followed by 'Scare Glow' , 'Coward's Nun' ,'Edward Norton, 3 goats and a muncie pig.. Land lord was gunna take me to ass Wal-mart.. lady upstairs tripped real bad saying we all blamed her.. when we wern't.. felt worse.. went to Wal-mart.. spent $$85 on flowering box and flower basket so they can hang on thier porch and 3 garden decoration things..flag,frog water gauge, and butterfly metal post thing.. walk all this crap home near mid-night.. gave them.. they said 'i didn't have too'.. ..but i did.. i felt i should.. Frog broke..went back to Wal-mart..exchange.. gave them gauge.. went down to my pit to slit wrists.. angel stop me.. i try to sleep.. can't watched cartoons.. and masturbated.. ..then sprayed Feebreeze all around and lit Glade candels make mildew smell go away.. everything still all wet .. so many Japan books ruined and even my Spider-man mangas.. but maybe if i let dry they will still be readable.. now all i want to do is talk to angel.. but instead i get 'Scare Glow'. .. the ghost of Skeletor..



..AND THE WINNER IS~~~~~~~~~..
SCARE GLOWWWwwwwwwwwwwww .. by a nose.. wait.. he's a Skeleton ghost.. he doesn't have anose.. shoot me.. kill me now.. please!! .. i'm serious.. i'm suicidal as f7ck.. >v<


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