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sábado, octubre 18, 2003
-->> ..
..the way it moves..
.. the way the sand moves..the albatross..
..the crest..the water..the foam..
..the stature of sky and stars..

..the chill in the air..
and the christus ..outspread arms..
..amoung
.. the valley of sand and jetties..
..the way you moved.. your staure..
..your eyes .. caress.. felt warm ..
and kept me warm.. in the chills..
and frights amidst ufo s..

.. the way cerlilium sky moved..
it all moved.. it all shifted.. it all twisted..
..it all changed and changed the same..
..and moved differntly similar..
.. it was all yeterday and it all plays..
over and over in a million yesterdays.. and god..
..
tommorow will be yesterday..
.. but that has changed..that has moved..
.. that has moved.. we have moved..
..and someday i will move again..
..tword you.. and maybe..
i will get be warm again..

..>v<

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viernes, octubre 17, 2003
-->>..best..
..why f8ckin' tigers?? what the f7ck do they want from me?? What do people want from me.. times ..as of right now.. i am so paranoid.. i always get ..::
"Well.. why are you always sorry.." .."Quit saying that.." .. yayayaya

.. as f7ckin' weird as i feel now.. the darkness just sets in.. what.. why the f7ck did the person i love give me a f6ckin' chance in the first place.. now it's all confused.. i'm grasping at a hope that i bleed in my heart will surpass all and at some point will become what has passed.
..i give you a headache.. what little you comprehend here.. you sitting there.. what few of you there are.. i give you a f7ckin' headache.. i'm such an overwhelming person. .. of coarse i hate myself.. i guess i am trying to even surpass that.. but it's like climbing Everest.. you think it's gonna f7ckin' happen overnight??

..what do the tigers even mean?? ..is it even real ?? .. i'm so confused.. motherf6ckers out there ..saying they aren't.. motherf7ckers out there sayin they are raped by Ninja turtles.. but the tigers aren't real.. jesus.
// why the f8ck didn't i just kill myself last year.. maybe i will tonight?? .. maybe..
what the f7ck.. you all want your ninja turtles to f7ck you up the ass..

F8CK YOU!!

.. look .. go get raped by some fat guy in a 'catholic school' .. then come to me with your f6ckin' vein of Ninja Turtles bonin' your sorry asses ..


.. sh6t.. i hate schizophrenia.. i hate my pils.. i'm not takin Geodon anymore.. no more pills..

.. just tigers ..huh.. tigers..lots of heads and tigers..

..kill me, tiger?? no .. he doesn't.. tiger looks at me.. god if this sh6t ain't real.. then how in the hell can i be??
..>v<

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-->>oo-sh6t!!
..i see tigers everywhere ..

..JAN.. don't be f8ckin' mad at me please.. i don't want to go thru this sh5t again.. please.. been there done that..please don't be pissed.. your one of my best friends.. don't be pissed at me please.. i can't take it ,yo.. i'm a f8ckin' d1ck ,ok!! ..>v<


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miércoles, octubre 15, 2003
-->>Yah-h00!!

..hey,MAw.. did'juh know?? .. if ya dun' gon letyir 'ORUNJJ JOOZ' ..fIIRMENT inna fridgidaire fer 84 hours..it dun tirn ta m00n shine!! h'yuck.. hey lookie here.. us Calerad0 hicks shure do make that fancy Vin' dorunjj all'em Californiuns been drinkin' fer years..







..kill me..

..>v<

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lunes, octubre 13, 2003
-->>drink..

.. Sunday i slept little and much later in evening ..cousin picked me up..we got grocery at Kmart and went to park ..late for walking.
..i was so dizzy.. i tripped and slammed my ankle.
..in the car ..on the way back to my place i rubbed my ankle.. for some reason,but it was amazing.. i felt the one i love..i felt the soft,warm face.
.. as i type this i feel it now..it is so beautiful.. so surreal.. (not here.. is it..)
..early in morning.. not here.. but i miss it so..i long to feel that..
//..i want to belong again..

..>v<

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