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martes, junio 29, 2004 -->> ..cook thoroughly.. ..god.. my brain..stop stop stop.. .. god.. don't anyone tell me they know what this is like.. you don't.. .. don't try either.. you don't know.. maybe you know for yourself..or your friends..or whatever.. but you don't know 'this'. God ..god ..yeh.. i wanna die.. AGAIN..yeh so.. what..ok.. lots of talk the past several months about what i gotta do for myself. But if i even touch the 'suicide' thing with a 10 foot pole..then i'm just..the worst thing in the world. jesus.. No matter what i do.. people think i'm on something hardcore like coke or something. ..OK one last time, you fucking idiots who stereotype me:: I AM A SICK PERSON.. I AM SORRY.. I AM SORRY I SHAKE AND I AM NERVOUS.. I'M SORRY I'M NOT NORMAL.. I'M SO SORRY.. I'M SORRY YOU CAN'T GET IT THRU' YOU'RE FUCKING EGOS AND YOUR STEREOTYPICAL TENDANCIES THAT NOT ALL SCHIZOPHRENIC PEOPLE ARE THE CRAZY PEOPLE YOU SEE IN MOVIES TRYING TO MURDER THEIR FAMILIES IN SOME OLD STEPHEN KING MOVIE.. O MY GOD.. I AM SO SORRY.. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST.. I'M SORRY I FOLLOW MY HEART..I'M SORRY I TRY TO USE MY BRAIN AND I'M SORRY I DON'T FOLLOW MY ASS OR MY COCK.. JESUS.. I AM SORRY I AM YOUR FRIEND.. I AM SORRY I LOVE YOU.. I AM SORRY I AM NOT PERFECT..I AM SORRY I DON'T LIKE THE PRESIDENT..I AM SORRY I AM STILL STUCK IN SCHOOL..I AM SORRY I DON'T DRAW REAL PRETTY LIKE.. I AM SORRY I AM SICK ..I AM SORRY ..SORRYSORRYSORRYSORRY what the fuck ?? ..is that what i'm supposed to do ?? ..noone wants me to say 'Sorry' .. "STOP SAYING YOU'RE SORRY" ..jesus tho' .. the way people act..sh7t..it's like that's what they need me to say ..god.. UGH!! ..and it's GONNA HURT LIKE THIS..isn't it.. continually.. ?? ..really ?? Forever ?? ..fuck i hope not.. it continually rips.. god damm it.. ..trying to stay calm.. god ugh.. god it's hard here..staying with Mawm and Pop so i can earn $$ and get my car registered and insured. God..fighting this is insane.. ..Goddammit,Mig .. .. ah.. .. and why the fuck does 'Lean Cuisine - Steak Tips Dijon' have a fucking after-taste 3 hours later of used cat litter ?? ..not that i'd know what cat litter.. - ..o' fuck it.. ..>v< ..? ? ? ? ?..   lunes, junio 28, 2004 -->> ..some.. fever .. .. too many heads, too many voices..& sh6t. I got some 'head fever' ,i am seeing heads.. ..here are nice dumb lyrics that are nice.. your own worst enemy:: by 'They Might Be Giants..' It's your own worst enemy Ringing the bell on the door And the person inside says nobody's home So your own worst enemy peeks inside And sees you softly weeping as some music fills the room And the song they play Is that guy with the messed up face Going, precious and few are the moments that you And your own worst enemy share Full bottle in front of me Time to roll up my sleeves And get to work And after many glasses of work I get paid in the brain And the song they play Is that guy with the messed up face Going, precious and few are the moments that you And your own worst enemy share And the song they play Is that guy with the messed up face Going, precious and few are the moments that you And your own worst enemy share It's your own worst enemy ..>v< ..? ? ? ? ?..