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lunes, octubre 04, 2004
-->> ..there was a song based on the popular sign..
..when's it gonna turn green..??

..baisically no schedule has left me with a very random, erratic work schedule..not making it to mamw's to work on Sunday ..random visits by Z and alot of illustration,painting and web work.. i've been blurring along. Miguel took off for the week. And i ahve not been able to speak to him. Trying not to get manic about it. Dammit..when can i stop missing him?? When the f7ck can i get his voice out of my head ?? I guess only when i'm dead. Migel and Marcos are a very big and distant part of my life if i like it or not. Migul's voice dominated me this weekend.. and tring to purge it is futile as always. We argue..fight..he consoles me..encourages me and questions me..it's quite maddening. I was able to hook up breaifly with Z and then cousin over the weekend. After Dinner and letting Cousin watch Donnie Darko..i really ended up stayin' late. Catching up with Cousin is nice. But as soon as i took off into the rainy un-twilight.. .. it was very cold. Miguel was talking to me. I made it all the way to downtown arguing with Miguel.. being wary tho' to watch for all the red lights and signs.. i was pulled over cuz a cop didn't see me stop at a sign a few weeks ago..adding to a second court date in November.

..at one red i stopped for prolly was about 5 minutes.. downtown..in a strage dark intersection..arguing..thinking,talking to Miguel.
~~**BLAH BLAH BLAH SQUABBLE SQUABBLE..
..the voice in my head.. the voice in my heart..

..on and on.. i was thinking.. "..when the f7ck is the light gonna change."]

..the window was down and the cold vent was on. It felt good to have the cool,wet, breeze in the claustrophobic car. As i looked at the red.. i realised..soon, it wasn't going to change.

It was a stop sign. I guess it jsut didn't feel like turning into a green 'Go' sign.. either that ,or my brain went flat for a second and somehow.. an intersection stop light transformed into a measly lil' stop sign.

.. i drove off feelin' kinda dumm..
..but no worse for wear.. yeh ..i hate my brain..

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